Eclipse

  Hoy día te soñé, juré que eras real. Entre medio de la penumbra, recorrí las sabanas todavía tibias esperando encontrarme contigo. Quizás la noche ya se acabo y ahora no te encuentro, pero se que estas allá, afuera, y que por lo menos en alguna parte de tu corazón me guardas un lugar. Verte pronto me hace ilusión. Anidarme en tus brazos como un cachorro indefenso, dormir como si nunca nos hubieramos separado. Como si nos conocieramos desde siempre. Ya, no digas más, guardame un espacio en tu silencio para escuchar tu respiración agitada, para saborear la tensión de un reencuentro con aire de despedida, con uno de esos momentos que aunque muchas veces se han repetido siempre son novedad. Y no te compliques por los detalles, eso dejamelo a mí...



This is for the things I don't say enough,
Waiting for the day we touch
Your lips to mine eclipse solar lunar
I'll see you soon but I'll talk to you sooner
This is for the things I don't say enough,
Waiting for the day we touch
Your lips to mine eclipse solar lunar
I'll see you soon but I'll talk to you sooner

Do you honestly believe I'd turn my back on you and leave my true love all alone in this cruel world?
When every single solitary day I do my best to secure a future for me and you girl
Cause it IS all about you, It's been all about you
Seconds feel like millenniums when I'm without you,
But my momma said there be days like this and ain't jack we can do
that's the way life is.

But it's been weeks since I felt your lips and I'm a fiend for my queen so I need a fix,
Only for now I'll settle for these talks on the phone,
But I cut my arm off for a moment alone,
With the one that I cherish whether in Rome or Paris, Amsterdam or Japan,
Please note that I am thinkin' bout my baby as much as humanly possible,
An' I know you're frustrated cause life has too many obstacles

This is for the things I don't say enough,
Waiting for the day we touch
Your lips to mine eclipse solar lunar
I'll see you soon but I'll talk to you sooner
This is for the things I don't say enough,
Waiting for the day we touch
Your lips to mine eclipse solar lunar
I'll see you soon but I'll talk to you sooner

My dear my dear my dear I know you're lonely
An' I know very well that it's hard and it hurts but there's no need to cry,
Cause I will be home soon and there ain't no limit to the things that we goin' do,
Whatever you want name it and I'll make it reality,
To see my baby's face nothin' means more then that for me.
This is far from flattery I ain't trying to impress you,
truth is I miss you and I'm hurtin' internally,
Sometimes these long trips feel like eternity,
But they say distance makes the heart grow fonder,
And in this case it's proven to be fact,
So I'll be back like a T100.

From blocks away you will see me comin',
With the biggest smile you ever seen on my face,
Cause even the toughest man on the planet needs lovin',
There's nothin' tame the wild like a woman's embrace.

This is for the things I don't say enough,
Waiting for the day we touch
Your lips to mine eclipse solar lunar
I'll see you soon but I'll talk to you sooner
This is for the things I don't say enough,
Waiting for the day we touch
Your lips to mine eclipse solar lunar
I'll see you soon but I'll talk to you sooner

Feels like it's been forever and I can't wait to see ya,
It's like wit' Bonnie and Clyde, Tony and Maria,
Romeo and Juliet, Akeem, Alicia.
Basically inseparable and it's more then sexual.

Withstand every shell Tell me don't you like the sound of that?
Got my heart racing an about to have a heart attack
Wantin' to be loved by you just you.
Theres nobody loves you like I do
And I ain't scared to show it
but these feelings are hard to put into words
and I'm a poet slash MC
So give me credit for expressing them
because writin' this was more nervous then I ever been

I had to get it out for when I'm unable to sit wit' you,
You have a little song that I wrote for you to listen to,
So you know the way that you're missin' me I'm missin you.
I wanna give you the world but for now I hope this'll do.

Changes

"I knew her when summer was her crown
And autumn sad
How brown her eyes...

I knew her when winter was her cloak
And spring her voice
She spoke to me..."
              -  The Zombies, Changes.


  And as she spoke, those dreadful yet insignificant words crawled into my skin and shook my mood, memories like a train wreck rushed into my head. And even though I said I was 'Ok', I wasn't so sure now. I haven't really thought about it much. Sure, I had a few bad weeks, where all I could think about was in how betrayed and stomped I felt, had days where I couldn't sleep, where I couldn't think of anything else and where any little thing reminded me of her. Deep was my sorrow, that horrible memory carved deep enough to reach my darkest fears and feelings. I thought I was past that point, I was lying to myself. "There are good days and bad days", I said to her. "But things keep getting better all the time". I can't remember what she said after that, a few minutes later we said our goodbyes and went on separate ways.

  The past few days I've been busy with other things. Talking with my friend Jackie made me notice certain things about my life I was missing. My life was terrible in many aspects, some I've never attended properly because I was 'too busy' taking care of that other person. And I made a promise to myself. I have to change my situation, no matter how, no matter when, sooner than later, i had to start changing things around. I can't keep living like this anymore. It's too depressing. All this time, my reality was depressing, living here is depressing, the way my mother treats me is depressing, my room is dark, this house is a mess, i don't have money or time for me and things seem to get worse and worse. Basically, it's time I focus in myself and myself alone. I started to do so a few weeks ago, I've been doing excercise like crazy. In my darkest mood, with all this 'we broke up' thing, I nearly ended breaking up my leg during my constant jogging sessions. Even so, I feel i'm back in the game. I've spent a lot of time with my friends also, I have been going out so much I'm even starting to get tired of it. But i can't put in words how much my friends have done for me, i'm grateful every day for having friends like them.

And here I am now, four o'clock in the morning, sitting in my bedroom, thinking about everything I've had in mind these past weeks. I look outside searching for the moon, as it comes to my mind that things are looking better now, I feel that, for the first time in my life, i can handle everything that comes to me and I'm ready to take any challenge. I feel in control of my life, and most of all, in control of myself. And i don't need anyone for that. All i need is for my leg to get better, so i can tie up my running shoes and dive into the night, not fearing the unknown, fast and powerful as the wind, travelling far into new horizons.

Cero ganas de escribir.